I am an organized person. Not neat by any means. If you see my pack on a travel day or the number of tabs I have open on my Google Chrome, you’ll know that. For me organization means it has a place and neatness means that place is logical or makes sense. So, what I am saying is, there is a lot of illogic to my organization. I know where everything is, it just is a 50/50 shot if it should actually be there.
Because I like things organized, I love to put things in boxes. And as we come to the end of the Race and I am reflecting on what my walk with the Lord has looked like before, during, and what it will look like after the Race. And the same conclusion I keep coming to is that I like putting things in boxes and I tried to do that with God.
I tried to box up my life in different places because it is what made since to me, but I’ve come to the truth that God doesn’t always make sense to me, He doesn’t belong in one of my boxes.
Don’t hear me that I have found a way to put the Creator of the Universe in a box. It’s not possible to put God in a box. He exists outside of anything we could imagine. But what I became very good at was allowing what I thought God could do live in a box. My own perception of Him I limited to what I felt comfortable with. Limited to what I could fit in one of my safe boxes.
What that God box did was create a spirit of fear and an inability to walk in freedom. When I broke the walls of my God box, when I smashed it to pieces, I began to see the freedom that He offers. Trusting in Him to be true to His character, allows you to step into freedom.
It’s a freedom that I am walking in now, and seeing the fruit of all around me.
This is the freedom that I get to take home with me… IN 10 DAYS…
That is crazy to think that in 10 days we are hoping on an airplane to head back to the States, to see what the Lord has in store for this entire squad there.
It is not somewhere that 6 months ago I could even picture. The idea of going home after the Race seemed so foreign and unimaginable. The change that has occurred in me in these past 6 months and that has happened back home I look forward to.
In a book I just read called Beautiful Resistance by Jon Tyson, he focused an entire chapter on worship and how it should resist idolatry.
“God’s heart is that we know him and live in freedom and joy. This is why he calls us to tear down these spiritual forgeries so that we can enjoy the goodness of his love. The antidote for idolatry is rightly ordering our loves. It’s getting our hearts, our minds, our souls, and our strength oriented toward the thing that can truly satisfy.”
Something that struck so deeply with this chapter is the way that we place things that inhibit us from truly seeing God, worshipping Him fully, and sitting in His divine presence.
Whether you have put what you think of God in a box to keep Him from reaching certain areas of your life or to stay within your comfort zones I encourage you to break those boxes. Walk in the freedom that He gives. Hand Him your burdens. Step out in faith, that He is Jehovah Jireh, he Lord will provide. Because every day He will provide, astound, love, celebrate, discipline, and do all the other things that are of His character. HE WILL BE GOD.
Hannah, this is so good. We especially love your statement that when you “broke the walls of my God box, when I smashed it to pieces, I began to see the freedom that He offers. Trusting in Him to be true to His character, allows you to step into freedom.” The freedom that he offers is such a foreign concept for so many. We will continue to pray for you as you go home and continue to point others to the truths that you have. We will see you in five days!!!! Can’t wait. We love you!!!
Handing him our burdens instead of trying to handle them ourselves. Simply said but so hard to do!!! Thanks for the reminder and can’t wait to see you in just a few short days!
Bruh. You are incredible and I’m so proud of your obedience to the Lord. Love you forever and ever!